This blog is an attempt to be productive every day while also learning more about coding and the world of IT. It was built using the Astro framework due to its simplicity when it comes to making blogs.

My name is Celso Carvalho Jr., also known as Imperator Blackfyre for those who don’t know me yet. I’m 26 years old and, unfortunately, I was born and raised in Bostil, SA. I have a background in playing a lot of games, watching many movies and series, and being completely immersed in technology ever since I was a kid. This will be my space to post about myself as a person and also to learn a little more about coding in the process.

The information that I have in my autistic mind can be overwhelming sometimes, and that needs some release. If people like the same stuff I do, we can definitely be good friends. I love a lot of broken humour and can be a good friend when I like myself. That’s a problem, though, because I don’t like myself, in fact, and I wonder if I could use the word “hate” in this situation. Well, if I think something should be shared, it will be shared here. So keep that in mind.

I’ve had an ordinary childhood, to say the least—nothing special. Only loneliness and autism were involved while I was growing up. As I completely isolated myself from the world, I went to two different schools, attended three different graduations, and took a technical course in systems development. That’s my educational background. I also studied some Game Design and coding. I dropped Game Design because I didn’t feel like I would be a good professional in that area, and this doesn’t mean I’m good at coding either. I’ve given up on a lot of things in my life; these are just a few examples. Many things I tried only because they were on my path, and it took me a long time to realize that they weren’t worth it or didn’t fit me.

Now my Agent Smith moment, I don’t know why I’m here writing this. Why, why? Why do I keep living? Why do I do it? Why keep fighting? Do I even believe I can be someone useful in life? Do I live for more than keeping my family happy? Can I tell why I do it? Do I know anything? Is it choice? Is it because there is nothing else to do? Perhaps I’m just waiting for something other than my family. Illusions—what would I do without my family? How would I live? Different perceptions, temporary constructs of life. I’m just someone waiting for a meaning or purpose I haven’t found yet, or don’t know if I ever will. Why do I persist?

Anyways, welcome! Here you would know more about me and the stuff I like. I'll bring my opinions and learn more!

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